I get all revved up to draw something, and then the moment my stylus touches the tablet surface my brain shrivels up and implodes on itself. I'm feeling better than I have been lately, now that my medication is seeming to level me back out, but it's still so hard to come up with something original.
Back in the day, I was all like, "Aw, hell yeah, let's draw a fuckin' dragon with umpteen thousand spikes and rotten flesh!", Or.. "Let's come up with a new race of things for a roleplay! Fuck yeah!". Now I'm just like, "Ay... that's that thing from that thing I like. Let's draw that instead of coming up with something with an original design of my own, because doing that hurts my brain too much. Yeah...". I don't know, maybe I'm over-thinking it.
Artwork still isn't as enjoyable to me as it once was, which is a shame because that's the only 'talent' I really have that can allow me to eat and live in the future. Seriously, ask me to do anything else and I'll be like, "Do-do-do, what the fuck, can you explain this to me for the thirty-fourth time?" but while screaming.
Okay, done rambling about shit no one cares about.